#3. The One Where We Finally Figure Out How to Know What We Want For Dinner...

but, seriously.

I want to start by acknowledging how grateful and honored I am that you’re reading my work; that you’re coming along with me while I try something new. It has meant the world to me to hear how you are connecting with what I’m writing. One of the hopes I had in starting this was that through writing honestly about how my mental and emotional bodies show themselves to me, others wouldn’t feel so alone in these complex and confusing systems of the mind. Now, I’m realizing with each message I receive from you, the thing I thought I was giving, I’m now receiving. It’s beautiful—so, thank you. And speaking of something beautiful in this peculiar experience of writing, during an interview I read this week with Caroline Cala Donofrio of Between a Rock and a Card Place, Caroline quoted the Sean Thomas Dougherty’s poem “Why bother?” that I hope I will remember for the rest of my days:

Because right now, there is

someone

out there with

a wound

in the exact shape

of your words.

what to expect from this edition:

• mine: personal essay about what I learned this week

• ours: the dialogue of the week is self-attunement

• yours: the thing I’m on-mental health boosting habit I’m on this week 

• two flows and a slow–my version of 2 highs and a low

• Inner-dialoguing–a mantra of sorts

If you want more info and my full disclaimer (abridged version: I’m a therapist, but not your therapist—even if you are a client of mine ~hi there!~ this isn’t a session. dialoguing is an educational and informational newsletter, not a substitute for mental health treatment) check out the about page here. If you’re new here, a great place to start is my first ever edition of this newsletter.

dialoguing with myself: what I learned this week

No matter how “well” I feel, this feeling hinges entirely on the reality that I am, and always will be, high-maintenance.